~Aphrodite~
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Post by ~Aphrodite~ on Mar 16, 2006 2:23:10 GMT
Eyes bright with hurt...I stand up....Kneel over him and touch my hand to his heart once more.....
"No Roger.....I will not apoligize...I've shown you my most secret thing...something ONLY they saw...Yet....You give me nothing in return....I have cared more for you in moments then I have cared for others in a lifetime. Ye can not spend you life in a hole. Tis a bright and wonderful world....Ye only have to let the past go and focus on the present....I...I WANT to be your present and your future....Can't you see and feel it in me....I'm open to ye....Roger.."
I stand back up and head to the couch....I pull of my jacket and place my things on a nearby table and blow out the lantern...I lay back on my stomach...My hands under my head and begin to sob. I want loved...but...I do not wish it to be true....honest....and fair...If I give....I expect a giving in return...Perhaps I had pushed to hard to fast...and that hurts...I let my feelings sting the air of the room....They are his for listening in on. I actually want to never hid another thing from him again...NOTHING......He's been through it...and I ...I will take what is given....No more pushing....although mad at myself...I cry.....not for myself..but for him....
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Post by Bond on Mar 17, 2006 17:54:58 GMT
*I kneel and shake on the floor as Aprhodite comes to me and touches my heart.. a simple gesture.. but one filled with love.. compassion… understanding… It causees a faint shiver to run through me. My skin tingling.
Her words though cut like a knife... Yet....You give me nothing in return It’s not true. I have already opened up to Aphrodite more than anyone in my life. This is the biggest risk I have ever taken.... bigger even than going to those butchers.... My life before that was a living hell... Now it is an undead one...*
“More? You want more? You are the first person I have ever let know what I am… where I live… come to my home… and you want more? You want to know why? Is that it? You want to know all…..”
*Her thoughts and feelings wash over me in the stillness that follows. Her pain is tremendous. She even grieves for me without truly knowing why. Her sobs cause me to look up at her… That more than anything… That anguish… that…. Naked emotion… that…. That is why I take a chance.*
“I was raped… over… and over…”
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Post by ~Aphrodite~ on Mar 18, 2006 17:00:53 GMT
He speaks and I try to calm the sobbing that has taken over my body. My arms glistening with tears. My nose a snotty mess. I listen to his every word...I think....YES..I want it all Roger...I now NEED to know you...ALL of you....Then he says it....soft childlike whisper.... I was raped… over… and over
I do not look up at him immediately...I know his head will be turned from me. His head blushing with shame...Yet, there is not shame in it. What was he to do.....he had to take it...and then get out when he could. I run my hand over my face and try to wipe away the wetness on my cheeks and eyes. I wip it on my jeans.
"Roger.....Words can not express....so you will have to feel them for yourself...."
I say that small sentance still sucking in breaths from my horrid sobbing. I hold out my hand for him to take if he wishes....I now feel that he has given me all...and from this point on I am happy that he cared enough in these few hours to share his deepest secret like I have shared mine. My emotions are laid out for him and him only to view....For him I do not feel pity...I feel stregnth....He was strong to endure it. He was brave. He doesn't know it yet but I feel that he is the bravest person I know. He had the courage to leave also. The strong will to turn his back on the facility and head his own way....Not caring if it ment starving to death or worse.
My hand held out to him....I bite my lower lip in a nervous way. I want him to accept the outstretched hand. I want to feel the safety of his arms again more than I want my life at this one moment. His face turns back to me and I can feel his mind slighty reach out to mine....Yessssss....he can do it.....I know he can...We are now....forever binded by our secrets, our hearts...and our minds.....In my mind I beg him to take hold of my mind and my hand.....and forever his for the taking my heart!
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Post by Bond on Mar 20, 2006 15:37:36 GMT
*I feel both relief and fear wash over me. I can’t even bear to look up at her though… On one hand, it feels good to have shared my secret with Aphrodite… I didn’t think it would. I’d been keeping it to myself for so long. But it feels as if a burden has been lifted off my shoulders just in the sharing of secrets. Only knowing what she has been through.. and how I feel about her could I share this. No one else could have made me feel comfortable enough to share. I feel fear as well though. The tiniest bit of doubt that she won’t understand. That she will blae me and consider me weak… That’s why I can’t look up at her…
But her sobbing tears at my heart. Her emotions start to creep into mine. No pity… just.. love.. compassion… like the Goddess she is named for. It gives me the strength to look up at her. To see her outstretched hand…. It causes me to ache and react on pure instinct.. something I never do…
I don’t just reach for her hand. I rise up and trembling go to her.. taking her in my arms as I fall down on top of her on the couch. Arms around her.. holding her tight… her tears wet upon my skin… I begin to kiss her tears away… kissing her cheeks over and over… compassion becoming passion… feelings of love and desire I’ve never felt before.*
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Post by ~Aphrodite~ on Mar 21, 2006 0:14:43 GMT
When he stands up upon shaky legs and pretty much tackles me to the couch my heart speeds up a notch...I do not fear that he will hurt me...Yet, its when he licks and kisses away the tears on my cheeks that I close my eyes and I just know...I just know right then and there that I shall never spend another night away from him. I think this is love....I wonder if love can come so fast, at such a speed....I wonder if love leaves this gooey feeling in my stomach....I wonder tons of things till his lips press against my own...
Then I lose all track of thought. I just slip into the moment. I ease my tongue out of my mouth to taste his tear laden lips. I reach my arms around his neck holding his face and I open my eyes...I watch his expressions...his movements...I take in every detail of his deep set sparkling eyes...
"Roger....ummmm....."
I canna speak...I'm losing track of my mind as it becomes muddled with passion...I want to say something sweet....yet...All I can utter out is his name...over and over it plays in my head...like an old record skipping...ROGER ROGER ROGER........
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Post by Bond on Mar 21, 2006 2:40:54 GMT
*God! Is this what love feels like? All warm like a hot fudge sundae... eaten while hurtling down a roller coaster at 90 MPH.... It tastes great.. but scares the hell out of ya all at once. Its a bizarre combination.. I start to think about it.. too much really. I start to get nervous about it all until Aphrodite takes hold of my face... Her finger tips dancing in my hair. My whole body stiffens up for a moment before hungrily pressing into hers.
Our eyes locked on eachother... minds and feelings washing over eachother. Both feeling real and true passion for the first time... My mind completely unguarded for the first time... Heart pounding in my chest so loud I can hear it. I reach up and run my fingers through Aphrodite's silky hair. Every inch of me aching as if on fire. Several minutes go by as we continue to kiss and hold one another.
The howling winds blow out the candles and leave the apartment in complete darkness... neither of us seems to notice or even care. All that really seems to matter right now is being together. I wish this moment never had to end but like all good things it must.. but not before exposing all of my feelings to Aprhrodite... love, friendship, compassion, caring.... This girl... this woman... has become a part of my life I never knew I was missing until she was found... I could have gone on living empty and alone for ages and never knew.. but now that I do... I can't live without her.
Groaning I pull back from Aphrodite and sit up. I pull her up into my lap and wrap my arms around her.*
"I... I.. I think I love you."
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Post by ~Aphrodite~ on Mar 21, 2006 3:34:24 GMT
When he lifts off me a bit of sorrow takes over till I'm on his lap and he confesses love to me...
"OH Roger....I feel all hot and gooey inside...If this is what love feels like than I'm in love with you too..."
I press my lips back to his and hold on to his for dear life. This boy...no this man has taken my breath away...My heart is racing...My breath is coming in quick pants...He is one of us...He is my kind...he is everything I could ever hope for in man...Smart....Self reliant....Responsible.....And many, many, more things besides beautiful inside and out. He reads....He even had a lantern....My soul sours with the air fluttering in the night wind..I lean into his chest and let his arms hold me.....I am very content there with my lips still pressed upon his....
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Post by Bond on Mar 22, 2006 15:26:36 GMT
*Kissing her like this... I've never felt anything like it. Its warm and comfortable but at the same time exciting and heart pounding. Its more than I ever dreamed of or imagined from any book I've read. I couldn't write the story any better. She's so beautiful and kind. She takes care of all the others.... yet is mine.. now and forever.
I can't help but think back to the times I saw her at the facility. I would steal glances at her and hope no one else saw. Even then... she was in my dreams. But I couldn't believe it. I never believed it could be real. That she could love me back.
I suck on her bottom lip and pull back from her... It slides through my lips and she looks up at me... Both wanting nothing more than to stay in this moment. To capture it and freeze it.. Never let it end.. never let time pass...*
"I've never been in love before. I don't know what its supposed to feel like. I just know that I loved you the first moment I laid eyes on you in the facility. I just never believed a girl as beautiful and together as you could notice me. So I stayed away. When you came in the store today... My heart fell into the pit of my stomach.... I.. I don't want this to end.. If I'm dreaming.. don't wake me.. I couldn't stand the heartache of losing you."
*I stand up and pull Aphrodite up into my arms... Her arms around my neck.. head against my chest and shoulder. I carry her with me as I make sure the candles are completely out from the wind. I look down into her eyes as we walk into my bedroom and place her gently onto the bed.*
"You sleep here tonight. I'll sleep on the couch, Aphrodite."
*I turn toward the doorway before turning back to give her one more kiss before leaving*
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Post by ~Aphrodite~ on Mar 23, 2006 8:14:43 GMT
I smile up to him and listen to his words....the sweetest ones I will remember forever....
"I wished thousands of times that you had noticed me then....I'm terribly glad for the now....If we are dreaming.....I agree it will be a shame to wake up...so leave me asleep also."
Then out of nowhere I can feel my body lifted with not even as much of a gasp of breath from him. He is so so much stronger than I have given him credit for. He is wonderful...beautiful inside and out. We're walking towards his room I assume. My heart leaps inside my chest when he lays me down upon his bed.
"You sleep here tonight. I'll sleep on the couch, Aphrodite."
He turns to walk away then...
"NO....Roger........"
He cuts me off with a swift kiss to my lips, a dizzy, swoon inducing kiss.
"Please, Don't leave me.....I shall feel empty and alone if you do....
I can begin to feel the tingle of tears glisten over my eyes....I am not about to let him go now....or anytime in the future...So I simply just pat the bed beside me.....
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Post by Bond on Mar 23, 2006 15:48:17 GMT
*As I turn to leave, Aphrodite asks me to stay.... Stay? My head is swimming.. It's like I'm in a fog of some kind. I want to stay.. I want to hold her in my arms and never let go of her. I swallow hard without turning back to Aphrodite. I know she can read in my thoughts.. but I don't want her to see the fear and excitement in my face as well.*
"I dont wish to ever leave you Aphrodite. But this is all going so fast.."
*She pats the bed and I turn around and look at her... tears welling in her eyes... I do the only thing I can do... I walk over to her and drop the blanket. Sitting down beside her, I take her face in my hands and kiss her long and slow on her soft full lips..... A low groan escaping from my throat.*
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~Aphrodite~
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Post by ~Aphrodite~ on Mar 23, 2006 16:04:10 GMT
Going to fast....Yes...I agree... He comes back to the bed and kisses me yet again...sending shivers down my spine...I pull away and lay back and pull him down beside me....He throws the covers around us and I place my head on his arm. As he wraps his free arm around my waist and pulls me to him...
I close my eyes and begin to calm my breathing..
"thanks for staying....I think I love you too Roger, Goodnight...."
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Post by Bond on Mar 24, 2006 18:25:07 GMT
*I lay down beside Aphrodite a bit awkwardly. I'm still not used to the idea of being so close to the woman of my dreams. She just feels so perfect... so right in my arms... Her body warm against mine as she lays wrapped up beside me.
Content for the first time in my life, I close my eyes and scoot my legs up to Aprhrodite... Her right leg dropping over mine. Sighing I take a deep slow breath.*
"Goodnight, love."
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Post by ~Aphrodite~ on Mar 28, 2006 4:13:16 GMT
I take a deep breath and smile a lazy smile. I moan a bit... "goodnight love" I repeat in a small whisper as my eyes closeand my arms hold onto his I fall to sleep for the first of many more nights to come in his "only his" warm embrace....
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